Hiya guys and Happy New Year! It's that time of year where we build ourselves up. Full of new commitments, goals, and promises to ourselves to do better. Now I know I have been gone for a hot minute, but I wanted to take the time to reflect on what I wanted. Both as a person and as a blogger. I have spent the better part of December whipping myself into shape - all mostly mental shape that is. The past few months I have felt myself slipping back into old bad habits. In the back of my mind I kept telling myself 'oh just start in the new year no biggie', but was it really going to be that simple? Of course for you guys the most notable is my lack of posting, but other things in my life that were once habits started to become difficult as well. Like for example yoga - for a while I had developed a routine of 10-15 minutes of light yoga first thing in the morning. Then one day I started hitting the snooze button, because hey one day of sleeping in for the extra 15 minutes couldn't hurt right? Well here we are about 3 and a half months later and I still find myself hitting that snooze button. No yoga in sight.
And yet somehow the new year was going to change me? Hmm seems too good to be true, haha. Oh if only it were like a magical spell that would trigger a fresh year into a fresh new me. Wishful thinking. So after many cups of coffee - some days one too many - I gave myself time to ponder. I needed to reflect. Trying to do that during the busy life rush of the holiday season wasn't exactly ideal but the coffee helped. Deep down it felt like all these things in my life had a pattern to them. After all once a upon a time these tasks were every day basic habits that didn't require a second thought. I missed that! What happened to me?! I was sleeping in every day, making excuses to not work out, outright neglecting all social media, drinking soda again, and pounding back gluten like it was the end of days.
As I let myself think and reflect to all the little things I was doing (or not doing) I realized quickly that I was missing something. Consistency. I was definitely fresh out of that stuff.
Once the pattern was broken it created a crack in my life mirror. Little by little that crack spread until the mirror was almost shattered. Until I basically became an empty shell of what I set out to be in 2019. I'm honestly surprised that I didn't end up gaining weight with how much I was going back on to old habits. I was really half-assing my way through just about everything in my every day life. Like every single aspect. Things I enjoyed doing at one point like my skin care routine felt like a daunting task suddenly and my mind would say 'skipping one day won't hurt'. Ugh that phrase. Between that and my first waking thought being 'I don't want to go to the gym' I felt really annoying to myself. Like seriously, first literal thought as soon as my eyes open. Who thinks like this? Someone who is on her way to regressing back into a potato spud state that's who, haha.
But in all seriousness... I don't want my life mirror to completely break on me. I have come so far and I have so many dreams and goals that have yet to be reached.
So for 2020 it's all about one word for me: Consistency.
“Success isn’t always about greatness. It’s about consistency. Consistent hard work leads to success. Greatness will come.” – Dwayne 'The Rock' Johnson
When I think about giving up, on those days where that snooze buttons feels right or that piece of bread looks good, I want to think on this word. Consistency. Because breaking - just once - causes an effect on me and my metaphorical mirror. I need to be accountable for the decisions I make - the good and the bad - no matter how insignificant they may seem at the time. Everything counts in the long run. And as the saying goes, life is not a race but a marathon.
I can't deny how much sense it all makes. Like pieces to a puzzle. If I go to bed on time I will be well rested enough to not need to hit the snooze button in the morning. Which in turn means that I am mentally prepared enough to have a full day at work, workout at the gym, and still have time/energy to do a quick blog or social media post. And also if I use my time wisely and have blog posts thought-out and written beforehand instead of last minute I'll be more likely to post. It's like I can hear the angels singing in my head, haha. Things are clicking for the first time in a long while. Hello me, I've missed you! Here's hoping for a better and more consistent Rose in 2020.
What do you guys think about my word of the year? Please share your thoughts and maybe even your New Year Resolutions with me down in the comments! Catch you later Moonbaes.
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